Lynn

....haha oh god I've been neglecting this place for tumblr so bad (except for RP...).

So, um... Life update! I got an injection on Wednesday in my hip to alleviate the joint pain, thus far it's been really successful, and that is fucking huge.

Like, now able to stand, walk, move, sit, sleep... everything, properly. I mean I'm still sore, there's a muscular aspect to it, not being able to do things for so long's left me on the weaker side, but... that's solvable.

So, uh... happy flail of joy, dude.

And also two days 'til my birthday. 23... oh god how did that happen??? Wasn't I supposed to be an adult like five years ago? FFFF--

.... I am just... not having a good 'associate with people' day. I just... ugh.

It is currently three in the morning (so that probably isn't helping things).

I should go to bed, but then I'll just have to wake up and go to work... so... less inspired to do so.

Haven't accomplished anything today...

I looked up what's apparently wrong with my back... yeeeaahhhh... a lot of the 'treatment' things list it as like 'within the first few months'.

....>> I couldn't get a proper diagnosis out of anyone for seven years. This is apparently a really common thing, and a major problem for people, but...

No one could figure it out? Are my doctors really that fucking incompetent? I know back pain is a common thing... and saying I have lower back pain becomes kinda a.. 'uh huh, so?' thing.. 'cause... well, really... but.

It can get literally crippling. There are days when it takes me ten minutes to walk down the hall, an activity that, on a good day, takes me a couple seconds. It is knee buckling, vision blurring, curl up in a ball and cry pain. This isn't 'roll around a little, you be a'ight' pain. This isn't 'walk it off' pain. This isn't 'well it's probably because you're fat' pain.

....which took seven years of complaining to doctors to get taken seriously.

*is just in a bad mood tonight...*

La Senza, why do you not have any of your cute bras in size bazungas? Why? Is it so hard to make just a few sizes bigger? *sobs eternally*

...also, I was walking a little bit without a limp yesterday! =D

So, of course my back needed to give out entirely today. Yay I can't stand.

So yeah... XD; I'm a little loopy on painkillers today.. not gonna lie...

...this journal entry was mostly to complain about being too big for cute bras, I'm not even gonna lie. *is pathetic*

T___T But the little ones are so cute! Why?! Why can't I wear them too?! *sobsob*